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Monday, October 20th, 2008
7:59 pm	Gee whiz... Wow, it's hard to believe it's already been 6 weeks since my friend committed suicide.  They never released details, and there was never an obituary or public funeral, so it still feels like it never happened.  I feel bad for his family, especially his mom, who is who found him.  She went up to his bedroom to say hello, and he had shot himself in the head.  Then to make matters worse, she freaked out and when she went to go down the stairs, she fell and broke her leg.  I don't understand what possesses someone to do that. My best friends wedding was last weekend, and it went really well.  Even the orange bridesmaid dress wasn't that bad.  When she sends pictures, I'll have to post them.  Of course her wedding was the one weekend the weather sucked.  When we got to Casper on Wednesday, it was 80 degrees and beautiful, just as it had been all week.  When we got to Rock Springs on Thursday, it was rainy.  By Saturday, it was cold and snowy.  That night it got down to 12.  Chilly!  This last week was up in the 60s.  It was a blast though.  It was Halloween themed, and I actually enjoyed decorating the most.  We should have been having a funeral that day instead of a wedding though.  On Wednesday when she was heading to Casper from Rock Springs, she was hit by a semi.  He ran right over the passengers side of her brand new Jetta.  Then he claims he didn't realize he hit her.  She's very lucky to be alive. Andy and I have decided to put off having a baby for yet another year.  And to be honest, I'm down in the dumps about it.  He went back to the jewelry store full time, and we  were going to get the insurance, but it's $200 a month, and it doesn't seem bad, but that's a car payment a month.  We decided we're going to stick that money into a savings account and 1) see if we can financially live without it and 2) that way we have a decent saving to pay for a baby when the time comes.   It just sucks because when he was with Wells Fargo, our insurance was $70 a month.  Stupid people not paying their mortgages, they stole my baby dreams!  And I am extremely jealous of people who are pregnant or planning to become pregnant.  It just seems like things are not falling into place. One funny thing that happened is last week was everyone's ex get ahold of Megan week.  On Myspace, I noticed the same person was looking at my profile everyday, several times a day.  Turns out, it was Andy's ex fiancee.  She sent me a note where she was basically talking down to me, and I sent one being a bitch right back.  Now, she thinks we're best friends.  I added her as a friend just to see her profile.  She's like a 400 lb goth with wonky eyes.  I know that sounds horrible, but it's true.  The only thing I have to be jealous of her about is the fact that she too is pregnant.  Then while we were in Rock Springs, I got a message from Andy's best friend Dustin's ex.  She wanted to get some of her stuff back from Dustin.  For those who don't know, Dustin was homeless earlier this year, due to her, and he lived with us for a couple of months.  Of course, when you're homeless, you get rid of crap you don't need.  So I sent her a note saying he didn't have it anymore, and so far, I haven't heard anything else from her. Well, now that I've done my monthly update, its time to get bake sale stuff wrapped.  Every year we do a breast cancer fundraiser at work, and we're doing a bake sale as part of it this year.  I've been baking my ass off for damn near a week!  Hope all is well with everyone! Current Mood: busy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
5:53 pm	blah I'm still alive.  Just wanted to let you guys know.  A lot's been going on, so I haven't been around much.  But just wanted to say a quick hello. Current Mood: cold (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
10:59 pm	One day I met a fellow Zero... Hey everyone!  Once again  I have put off LJ.  Not a lot has been going on, or I just don't feel like typing.  Andy and I are all moved into the house.  In fact, it only took us 3 days to move completely in and we were unpacked in less than a week.  It's still really weird that we have our own house.  It's finally starting to feel like home as we go through and change things into what we want.  Since we've been here, we've acquired a new cat.  Andy's birthday was August 21st, so I got him a kitten, which he named Blue.   It's been like Wild America in the house.  Alice did not take to Blue very well at first, but they finally play a bit when she wants to. We're heading on vacation next week.  Andy and I have been together nearly four years, and I have never been to his parent's house, so we're heading to Colorado.  Only we're taking the long way.  We are driving to Rock Springs, WY the first day (an 8 hour drive) to see my best friend.  If we took the interstate, the trip would only be 9 hours from Billings to Monument.  Then Andy wants to go from RS through northern Colorado, which will be another 8 hours of driving.  I'm actually hoping the weather is crappy so we can take the interstate and only have about 5 hours of driving.  I am not the sitting in the car type. Anyways...like I said, nothing too exciting to write about.  But I am going to try to pop in a bit more often. Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
5:51 pm	ummm Ask me 1 question for each of the following: 1. Friends 2. Sex 3. Music 4. Drugs 5. Love 6. Livejournal No matter how rude, sexual, or confidential. Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked!   Current Mood: chipper (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
6:33 pm	More, more house We got it!!  We close August 3rd!  Just a quick update!!! Current Mood: ecstatic (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 18th, 2006
8:29 pm	more house Today we looked at a bunch of houses. We found one that we liked and put in an offer. This house is awesome. http://www.realtor.com/FindHome/HomeListing.asp?snum=27&locallnk=yes&frm=bymap&mnbed=3&mnbath=0&mnprice=0&mxprice=125000&js=off&pgnum=3&fid=so&stype=&mnsqft=&mls=xmls&areaid=2085&poe=realtor&ct=Billings&st=MT&sbint=&vtsort=&sorttype=&typ=1&x=52&y=13&sid=06F62CDD6B63C&snumxlid=1064548880&lnksrc=00002 I hope the link works. I'm so excited about it, and unlike the last place, I'm not nervous, even though it's more expensive than any other house we've looked at. It just feels like home. I can't wait! Not a whole lot else has been going on. I'm going to Martina McBride Thursday night. It was my birthday present, so me and some gals from work are going to it and then going out. It should be fun. I'm just glad to be finally getting my present since my birthday was back in May. I finally paid off my student loans a couple of weeks back. It was three years to the day. I have felt so much better since getting that taken care of. I so rock! I'm trying to find a place that sells plastic pink flamingos for cheap. It's sad, but my mother has this weird obsession with them. On her 50th birthday, I filled her 5x7 bathroom with 50 helium balloons. This year, she'll be 55. I want to get 55 pink flamingos and fill her yard. The little suckers are pricey though. I may just buy her a few and do a flamingo themed party. I think I can even do a flamingo cake. I love my mommy, but I love giving her grief more. I sent a note on classmates to my ex-best friend. Backstory: We were best friends from the time we were 5 until we were 18. I moved to Billings and she got a boyfriend. She's one of those who when she has a boyfriend, she can't have any friends. She moved to Havre, which is 4 hours from Billings, up by the Canadian border. The last time I saw her in person was 2 1/2 years ago, when she was in Billings and stopped in the salon to get my phone numbers. She'd moved houses and gotten a new number, so I've had no way to get ahold of her in probably 3 years. (I didn't get her number because I was in the middle of a haircut and didn't want to spend that time away from my customer.) When we got married in September, I didn't invite her because I hadn't heard from her in 2 years and we were doing a small family wedding. Evidently, she cornered both my cousin and sister down at the bar on seperate occasions, demanding to know why she wasn't invited. So she was pissed about that. Her father passed away in December, and I was going to head up to the funeral, but I didn't want to cause drama, and I couldn't send a card because I didn't have addresses for any of her family. Pissed her off again. So anyways...she joined classmates and I e-mailed her last week. She just e-mailed me back today with her address and number. Is it silly that I'm scared to talk to her. Neither of us have been the greatest friends, and I want to get in touch, but I'm afraid she'll bring up the wedding and funeral. What's you gals thoughts? Wow, that got long! Anyways...wish me luck on the house! Later Ladies!! Current Mood: excited (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 7th, 2006
4:14 pm	House... We aren't getting the house. The most the lady is willing to drop is $2000. We'd be willing to pay if it was in town and we didn't have to haul our own water and garbage. The house hunt continues... On a happier note, I just sent in my last student loan payment. It took me exactly three years. Now I'm broke, but hey it was $350 and I don't have to pay intrest anymore. Andy's taking me out tonight, and now I get to start saving for a new car! Current Mood: blah (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 6th, 2006
6:20 pm	sick... We just put in an offer for a house today. We should know by 5:00 pm tomorrow. I feel sick and have a stomachache. Current Mood: nervous (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
5:46 pm	Montana...way too hot I feel like such a sucky LJer. It's been forever since I've updated. Stupid myspace has taken up my time. Not a lot has been going on lately anyways. Andy and I are still doing the house hunting thing. We may have found a place. It's beautiful. Just over 1400 square feet, 3 bedroom, 1 bath, low taxes (484$ a year!) and a spacious lot. Those are the Pros. The Cons: Out of town (still only a 10 minute drive to work in good weather), have to haul your own water and set up your own garbage pickup, no water to dig a well, and no garage. But the way Billings is growing, it will become incorporated in a couple of years, and there will be city water and garbage. Oh well, we'll just have to see. My allergie have been acting up. It's insane. It's like I almost have a cold. I came home and took a cool shower, and that has seemed to help. Plus with the weather being in the mid 90s, it's been more miserable. I live in Montana for a reason, it's supposed to be nice and cool. Tonight is the first night in a week we haven't had company. My mom, stepdad and aunt were here last week, and Josh and Trudie were here Sunday thru this morning. I'm so glad I have my house back! Only thing is that we have more company coming July 1-5. I'm not looking foreward to it. Well, I'm going to take some Benadryl and take a nap. I'm sick of being sick. Current Mood: sick (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 22nd, 2006
9:55 pm	One day, I met a fellow zero... Wow, it's been a really long time since I've updated. I don't know if that means I've been busy or have been doing nothing. I've been focusing on work a lot in the past month or so. Trying to make sure I do full 40 hour weeks. (Where I work, it's really easy to leave early or come in late.) I've been doing really well. I know I can do it, but work was getting really bad there for a while and I was miserable being there. We've finally hired a new person. It's the first time I've ever worked with a male cosmetologist. He's really cool, been doing hair for 18 years, so there's lots to learn from him. Plus, the testosterone has really cut down the estrogen, and I think that has a lot to do with a better working environment. Like I said, I was doing really well with work...except one week. I was heading out the door and fell through the porch! Well, not really through. The landlord had a guy over painting and he moved the porch out and failed to put it back. When I got to work, all I could say was I think I need to go to the doctor. I twisted my knee, sprained a couple of fingers and cracked a bone in my hand. I couldn't work for two days, and had to do a couple of half days. It's been two weeks and I still have bruises up the side of my leg. So missing work that week was not my fault. It doesn't count against me and my doing good! Andy and I have been doing well. Being just the two of us is going pretty smoothly. We're trying to find a house to buy, but everytime we find one we like and can afford, it either gets sold or we can't get first time homebuyers because something won't pass. We can't do it any other way than with FTH because the difference in intrest rates is ridiculous. But we have decided to stay in Billings. Andy has been offered the assistant manager job at his work (he's been doing the work without the pay increase), now it's just getting them to flip it over so he gets the pay and the schedule. I'm considering either taking a part time job at my old boss's new restaurant when they open, just working evenings, or doing the secret shopper thing. Something to make a little extra cash. I'm heading up to Lewistown next week for my birthday. I am seriously counting down the days. I'm only working a four day week next week because it's on Wednesday (My work week is Saturday-Wednesday). Andy took off Wednesday and Thursday as his weekend so he could go too. I have not spent my actual birthday with my family in seven years, so I'm excited to finally be able to do it. I already know what I'm getting from Andy since he had to tell me. Martina McBride is coming to town in July and I really wanted to go. Turns out Andy's manager is friends with a guy who bounces for the Rolling Stones and works with the production company that's putting on Martina McBride. So I'm getting three second row center tickets as my gift, so me and a couple of girls from work are going. He had to tell me what I was getting so I didn't run out and buy tickets the day they went on sale. Anyways...I'm going to go to bed. I had a last minute schedule change and have to go into work the early shift. Plus I need to take some Benadryl so I can breathe. Laterz! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Pefect Dark: Zero music (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
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Friday, April 14th, 2006
1:06 pm	( spoiled... ) Yeah, so it's been awhile since I've been around here.  I guess not a lot is really going on.  Work and the like.  I've been trying to work out in the yard, but everytime I get a day off, it rains.  I love the rain though.  It's supposed to be 78 here today though, I'm definetly going to take advantage of it.  I took a weeks vacation  a couple of weeks ago, and did nothing.  I was so nice.  I sat around the house and read and that was about it.  I thought about going a couple of places, but I was just into being lazy. http://www.realtor.com/FindHome/HomeListing.asp?snum=2&locallnk=yes&frm=byzip&mnbed=2&mnbath=0&mnprice=0&mxprice=70000&js=off&pgnum=1&fid=so&stype=&mnsqft=&mls=xmls&areaid=59044&poe=realtor&zp=59044&sbint=&vtsort=&sorttype=&typ=1&typ=2&typ=4&x=51&y=9&sid=0675E521B373C&snumxlid=1057164163&lnksrc=00002 We've started looking at houses again.  If something wonderful comes up, then we'll take it.  The link above is a house I fell in love with yesterday.  The picture is really bad, but it's a cute house.  It needs some work, but nothing compared to some other ones we've looked at.  And it's in our price range.  I really want to get into "flipping" homes too, and with a little work (and the way Billings is growing) it would easily become a $130,000 home in the next couple of years.  I understand flipping is usually done in a smaller time block, but it takes money to do it.  And I think it would be an easily sold home if we needed to sell.  Andy was offered three stores : Idaho Falls, ID; Kennewick, WA; and Wanatchee, WA.  He's not  in a hurry to take one (the money's not a huge jump), but if it was right we'd take it, and need to sell quickly. Anyways...like I said, not a lot to update on, but I'm still alive!! Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Friday, March 10th, 2006
12:13 pm	When you refuse me You confuse me ( for fun ) Anyways...we are officially unpacked!!  Completely!!  I think I still was living out of some boxes from when I moved here 4 1/2 years ago.  (Billings was only supposed to be a temporary thing while I went to school.)  I went up to Lewistown yesterday to see my mom.  She's been down in the dumps the last few days.  I bought her the new Harry Potter movie (I personally think the movies are horrible and the books are so much better, but ehh, she likes them), and that seemed to cheer her up.  Then we went out to my favorite Chinese place of all time.  The food is so yummy there.  Then we went to see my aunt Michele.  Now she is the reason why I think my mom is so down in the dumps.  They are very close.  Last Friday, my aunt found a lump in her breast, and she goes in for surgery on Monday.  Living in a small town with no permanent surgeon (they have one that goes up from Billings twice a month and if it's an emergency, they do have someone they call), means she has to wait or travel.  So I think mom is worried a lot about that. When I got back to Billings, I went out with my friend Melissa.  There's a bar we go to Thursday nights because it's $1 Bud Light and Crown Royal night.  Last night it was packed compared to usual.  It was an Ok night, I was so tired from driving all day.  I just had a couple beers and a red beer and that was enough for me.  I also spent half the night trying to get Melissa to go to Rob Thomas with me.  I really want to go, but I won't go alone.   Colleen- I swear you have a twin and she was at the bar last night.  She looked just like you, at least from what your pictures look like, as I've never actually seen you.  Anyways again...It's time to get going.  Andy's still in bed and it's 12:30.  I told him we were going grocery shopping and jean shopping since my one pair of jean are dead. Current Mood: calm (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 5th, 2006
1:07 am	The hand of death Today, I think I killed my bird. :( It was just fine a hour ago, and I went to walk by to take a shower, and it's dead in the bottom of the cage. I refuse to walk by until Andy disposes of it. I suck at remembering to feed it, so it's my fault it died. I got it right after I moved to Billings, so I had it about 4 years. I'm sad. RIP Malibu... Current Mood: sad (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
6:58 am	*waves* I leave in half a hour to get on the plane. Just a last goodbye! See ya next Thursday!! Current Mood: happy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
6:27 pm	Goodbye cruel world, I'm leaving you today... Yay!! Tomorrow night at this time, I'll be in Florida. I'm so excited!! I really need this break. We're still trying to figure out what shore excursions we're going to do. I guess when we see the actual prices, that will help the decision too. I'm really going to miss getting on here (I'll be gone 9 days!!) and reading everyone's journal, even though I don't comment much, or hell, I don't do an update much. My iPod is loaded, and I still need to pack. We have to be up at the airport at 8 am tomorrow since our plane leaves at 9 am. The glory of a small airport, you don't have to be there early early. On Friday, we're going to Busch Gardens (yay rollercoasters!). And Saturday, Andy's aunt and uncle are driving us to Miami to get on the boat. Not much to say, work has been sucky, and it's been cold here the last couple of days. I can't wait to be in the sun! Anyways...I'll miss all y'all!!! Be back the 26th!! Christie: Thanks bunches for the note on myspace! We'll have to get on MSN again, it's been awhile! Current Mood: chipper (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
8:38 pm	again. Now, I don't regret having Andy move up to Montana, so no one take this that way. I was sitting here thinking about how much I miss driving down to Denver to see Andy and talking on the phone all night. I don't know why. I guess the eight hours of driving was an escape with a nice ending, and I got to get out of here for a little while. I liked getting up early to drive and catching the sunrise just as I hit Sheridan and the colors on the mountains. The refreshing mountain air (albeit smoggy) in Denver, getting to see my best friend in Casper on the way down. He used to call me everynight at 1:00 am. I went to bed as soon as I would get off of work, just so I'd get enough sleep to get up for work the next morning. We'd talk for 5, 6 hours at a time. I've had dreams where he hasn't called for days, and I wake up mad about it. Enough of my ramblings, but I just miss it. It was exciting. Current Mood: nostalgic (4 Comments |Comment on this)
8:14 pm	No flaws when you're pretending... ( habits ) Andy's out having a few beers with his boss, so I spent the night filling my iPod.  I kept autofilling it, and then going through the songs and deleting the ones I didn't want and then autofilling the rest.  Makes no sense, I should have just picked out what I wanted. Andy and I may have found another house.  It had a new roof, plumbing, and electrical system done in 2005, has 2 bedrooms, a full bath, new paint and carpet.  It's a gorgeous house, except it's on the southside of Billings.  Now, the southside is getting better, but I'm paranoid.  I told Andy I'd only live there if we got a security system and a privacy fence (which we'd do anyways).  It's a really nice neighborhood, but I'm still paranoid.  They're asking $79,900, so we'll put in a bid and see what happens. I've started mentally packing for our trip already.  Two weeks today, we'll be in Sarasota with Andy's aunt and uncle, and two weeks tomorrow, we'll be driving to Miami to get on the cruise.  Has anyone been on a cruise here?  If you have, what's some must needs to take along, and what's not worth taking?  I just don't want to overpack, but I don't want to forget anything since it's really expensive to shop on the ship.  I'm really ready for a break. Well, I'm going to go revel in the aloneness. Current Mood: chipper (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 29th, 2005
1:17 pm	So long for this life... Ahh, another roommate rant. Guess what? They gave us a freaking 3 day notice. Michelle says they'll be out by the 1st. Then why have they not started packing. Chris doesn't even get back to town until the 30th. They'll have to be in a major rush. Andy's going out to Wal-Mart at midnight the 31st and picking up his XBox 360 (they're finally getting more in, the perks of friends who are management), and two new locks and they'll be changed that night. If you can't give a 30 day notice, or hell, even tell us that you're looking for a new place, and pay up (they still owe rent for this month), then you deserve it. And Andy says he'll be just like a real landlord, he'll go through what's left, sell stuff and throw the rest away. We can't afford this place for too long by ourselves, so we either need to find a new place to rent or a place to buy. A prime example of people fucking over good people who do everything to help them. On a good note, I finally started my New Years baking. We were just too busy to do Christmas baking, so Andy suggested I do baking for New Years. So I bought neon food coloring and I'm going to do fun baking. I've only got my banana bread and sour cream twists done so far, so no fun stuff yet. Three weeks from now, I'll be in Florida, I'm so excited. I love visiting Florida, and it will be my first cruise. I'm ready for a break and some warmth. Well, now that I've ranted, I'm going to go do some more baking and clean stuff up and whatnot. On a side note, I love my iPod. Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: kidneythieves (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 27th, 2005
9:16 pm	I'm not a puppet, I'm a grenade... Hello everyone! I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I know I did. We went up to my mother's on Christmas Eve and just hung out. We didn't make it up in time to head out to my step-grandparent's place, but that's OK, even if I'm really bummed about it. On Christmas I got up at 5:30 in the morning due to the fact that I've been working ricockulous hours and I just couldn't sleep any more. At 10:30, my sister, step-sister, step-brother and step-niece came over and we opened presents. Andy is in love with my niece, Kyler. She's such a chubby baby!! Then we went out to my grandma and grandpa's place for Christmas dinner and just to generally get together.   Anyways, I got... ( gifts ) Well I'm going to go.  Andy should be home soon and Josh and Trudie are coming over tonight since they have to go back to traveling for their jobs on Friday. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)